do this. do that. this is your life.

sounds structured isnt it. planned. nice path.

more often than not, life takes twists and turns. things dont turn out as planned. yet, sometimes, implusiveness does make things more colourful and surprising (:

and suddenly, i developed an ever slight inclination towards using that new gadget that i got for my birthday. quite a nice experimentation, especially with company. went spore gardens festival on fri. was really nice! the level 6 part (: took photos but i think im not good at taking landscape photos. hehs. and sumhow or other, was caught on "candid camera" hahas.

and saturday was room for revelations on rather personal issues. on my part i guess. things didnt exactly go as planned ( and me being the planner, it says sth :S ) but still, the day turned out very very nice, abeit not exactly as planned. good food, good company, what more can i ask for (:

still, was rather shaken by instinct, and coincidences. far too many of them for my self-defence mechanism to withstand.

i like staying in control of myself. perhaps its a natural instinct, to be able to control the elements around and within you, your future path. yet, we all have different destinies. how quiant, yet another idealistic thought. only for the weak-minded and indecisive? perhaps. yet, there are no answers, no reasons, for natural disasters, for nature, for intangibles like instincts, like coincidences. or for unexpected turns.

and i got through the interview. shiok, to give politically-wrong ans? a major big disaster waiting to happen, they say. goodness if you want a scholarship you dont go into the room to screw 10 interviewers up by saying crap. yet, crap they might be, they were my true opinions, and part of that this-dosent-matter-much-to-me attitude hence nv prepare anything, perhaps that makes it more real? less stress? just speak rather freely? whatever it is. it was a really unexpected turn. anymore twists? perhaps. another shocker from me? hurhur.

merry xmas and a happy new year!