life's been great. real holiday since the start of my jc life. welcomed breather.
somehow ive nv been able to feel bored at home since i sumhow managed to find qt alot of funny things to occupy my time.

then there's tuition which is qt free & easy ( altho the kids can be a handful =x )

got my new hp yest! sleek and cool LG choc. yay. hav been eyeing it for a long long time since it first made its apparence ard 1 yr ago. and now i own it! (: hav qt a fun time playing with my new "hi-tech toy" which is like one of the most tech-savvy gadget ive ever owned for a long time ( exculding my digi cam ) have been waiting and waiting until my contract ended yay so here's a new hp for me! plus new student plan. yay nw i hav free incoming and all u friends out there can call me and chat as long as u want (:

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i was right abt rmg. nv fail to dump all kinds of blame on the temps. like why will i want a calc which is like half-dying. glad i left that place.

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i shld stop thinking abt nus.

highlight of the day: mp house visit.



hoho in my entire life staying here this is the 1st time i actually met my mp and shake his hand. ok so he came with a whole entourage plus all the hulabalu days b4 when the grass was cut until damn nice, trees were trimmed, pavements were swept & muddy paths cleared.



no wonder my parents were asking him to come more often! so tht here will be very clean always. heehee.



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i felt like dumping all my angst to the health minister. luckily he had bodyguards to protect him.



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oh looks like im nt destined for dentistry. even the dental assist job ( which is qt like shit ) isnt successful. not like i would hav stayed long enuff anw.

i cleared my room today.

i rmb the last time i cleared my room was 6 mths ago. when i finished my alevels and my rm was so messy it was like un-inhabitable for humans.

now, 6 mths later, i was clearing the debris of shattered dreams and lost hopes.

tonnes of scholarship/higher education brochures. 3 full bags in fact. i sold them all to the garang guni man. loads of medical articles, sat times with the science sections. all dumped away.

all that's left on my table, is the path ive decided to take from now on. a letter, and a calculator.

"look ahead and move on dear, loads of people became successful because when one door closes another bigger, brighter door opens for you"

ive no more tears left. they're all shed that night, when i was with you, when you were comforting me with your presence.

my room, full of memories, little trinkets, tokens of love and friendship.
as i clear them, a part of me gets removed, shelved and stuffed into the dark corners of cupboard. closed shut. never revisited.

now its clean and pristine, ready for the next phase of my life, as i embrace the future, and wonder what i would have been

if not for lost hopes and shattered dreams.

im but still a little girl beneath that confident exterior.

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