lunch with friends.

there was a cool atmosphere, looking forward to new experiences, flying off to new countries.

cant help feeling nostalgic. but maybe i shldnt spoil the mood. after all, nobody likes hearing sob stories. and i, for one, is too tired to be merry and happy at one of my few social activities ( goodness. my life is sad ). although yes it was a major highlight and very very comforting to stuff myself in food and do funny stuff like grocery shopping ( of all things ).

chinese new year is coming soon. holidays means rest and much deserved sleep (:

today during LTB a very powerful and inspiring message is made.

--what is your personal mission? -- who do you want walking out of uni 4 yrs down the road? --

and then i realised.

way back at every significant stage of my student life, i had a mission, a goal. it was something simple, but it kept me focused. and right now, with so many things demanding my attention, its hard to keep that focus.

very hard.

ive been having dreams more frequently. faraway dreams, at times i least expected it.

maybe, they help make school a little more bearable.

as usual, im lagging behind in my readings.

im growing used to the solo lifestyle in school. just that i wonder how on earth would i manage when project groups are not pre-assigned anymore. the trouble of forming project groups. i actually like the solo lifestyle in school. strangely. as much as i love company, i love being on my own for serious matters.

ive not really understood why things turned out this way, but maybe, as usual, my "da jie" aka cy, always listens. and maybe, ive found the reason for why things turned out the way they are now.

in the meantime, during those long journeys home, there's always dreams, to give my tired soul some sparkle as i snatch those fleeting moments of rest.

back to more readings. its week 2. cheers.